Posted in Literary Pieces, Short Stories

Lies

Dear Neil,

Lies. Lies revolve around my crazy mind. Lies keeping me from being stuck behind. Lies putting me out of my mind. Lies …

Ever since childhood, I was taught not to trust any other people other than myself. It was also engraved on my mind that people were only good thinking only for themselves. People won’t give even a single thought on you nor on somebody else. I was isolated to the outside world as much as my parents could do, so I could have the perception of the world we all live in as a cruel and inhumane one. It made me think I could feel the best at our own comforts. At first, I truly believed they were wrong. Maybe, it was just a result of a mayhem somewhere in their own lives. However, with what is happening right now in my life, I am gradually believing they were right from the start.

I rarely pay attention to my friends who greets me a “Hi”, “Good morning”, or even a simple raise of eyebrows. I frequently get the feeling they seem to be obligated to do such or could it be those were not actually meant for me, or could it also because what I hear is not effectively in sync with what I truly see in their facial expressions. Why did I say so? If I were to recollect every single interaction I had with them day-by-day, most were actually simpler-than-simple greetings.

I am only recognized whenever wanted. I am only called whenever needed. Otherwise, I’m just a useless, worthless human being. I feel like a foot rug.
Imagine how painful and difficult it is for me, who has no one left to talk to and no one left to open up and ease up things for me, to handle each passing day of my life with the trusted and valued people in my life away from my picture. What happened to “I am always right here for you” thing? What happened to “Because you’re my friend” thing? Isn’t it friends always stick together until the end? Isn’t it friends support each other with anything coming towards each other’s lives? I do not really know now what is true and what isn’t. I’m tired of being given empty responses. I’m tired of having a ‘Seen’ as a response. I’ve got enough of believing and expecting for all of them to hold on to their own promises. I’ve got enough of expecting someone would help me overcome every single problem life has to offer.

Can you help me? What should I do? Is there something wrong with me? Am I just an attention seeker? Am I going beyond the line? I won’t be expecting any reply from you. You might be one of them. Right now, I know I am living in a world full of lies. Full of fake entities, full of sadness, which seems to be never ending. Then, I realized my existence was the biggest lie of all.

 

Sincerely,
Neil

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Posted in Literary Pieces, Poems

Monologue

Would I consider myself to be blind
If all I see’s your picture on my mind
Would I consider myself to be mute
If I can’t tell you’re romantically cute

Would I consider myself to be crazy
If with you, my feelings can’t go easy
Will you hear me when I say to you
Darling, I’m so in love with you

Roses are red, violets are blue
Why can’t I tell my feelings for you
So I made this poem especially for you
But I don’t expect you to love me, too

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I’ll Be Waiting

I’ll be waiting for you ’til my last breath comes out
‘Cause you’re the only girl I cannot live without
I’ll wait for you even if it takes forever
Create our forever and after together

I’ll be waiting for you even if you once left me
Because you’re that special, and my one and only
I’ll be waiting for you no matter what it takes
Even you’re once tempted by your greatest mistakes

I’ll be waiting for you, I’ll accept you wholly
I’ll truly accept you with every single part of me
Running together in love; let’s get back on our track
I’ll be here waiting, hoping for you to come back

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Why Do I Love Her

Whenever I look into her eyes
Shimmer like the stars in the skies
It makes me want to mesmerize
About the feeling I can’t disguise

Her scent that lingers round the room
Her smile that lightens all the gloom
What I loved the most was her smile
Which makes me run for an extra mile

I’ll tell her I love her, oh I really wanted to
Even planned my future just for us two
How I wish I could be with you forever
And create ourselve our happily ever after

(7-7-6)

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I Shall Dance

I shall dance with a face full with glee
With the music playing within my knee
I shall dance with my heart’s full desire
Dancing for the life I seem to aspire

I shall dance with every twist and turn
Whenever it gets tight, I’ll go round and return
I shall dance with every slip and slide
Whenever it gets rough, I shall move and glide

I shall dance, oh I shall do it for you
I shall put to dance how much love I had for you
For love is a dance, I shall hug its rhythm so free
For love is a dance, I shall dance with its melody

(7-7-6)

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Pain

I could not hold it in
I can feel myself dying inside
I could not hold it in
When will this feeling subside

I could not cry it all out
Hope this is all a dream
I couldn’t let it all out
Nor could I even scream

All I know is that I’m in real pain
Every day seems so much more to gain
All I know is that I can feel it all
They can’t seem to be nothing at all

No one helped me, left me in grave pain
Tightly constricted by an endless chain
Feeling all the pain from toe to brain
Until my last breath, I can feel the pain

(7-7-6)

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Moving On

I don’t know how much it cost you
To abandon me without leaving any clue
I wish that day you would let me know
Why didn’t you tell me to let you go

How I wish I shouldn’t have met you
And made you believe love’d see us through
But I was a fool who got tricked by you
Believing your love for me was true

How can I move on now without you
I felt so hopeless because of you
I felt so worthless, oh thanks to you
I could’ve been better if it weren’t for you

(7-7-6)