Usually, anger follows guilt. It is not fair; it is the feeling. Now, it is natural, and normal, to be angry with god. All right! But when you tell that you are angry with God, it is a different story.
Tell that you are angry with Him. Verbalize it. Then ask for his forgiveness. But, instead of cursing you, He will even give you the light that you seek, because He understands every one. He will heal you.